Happy 1 Month Anniversary

19 January 2017.
our one month anniversary.
hehe.
so fast.
one month just flew by like this.
our love is growing with each passing day.
and i feel that i love baby more and more.

feels like the honey moon is going to be over soon.
we get irritated with each other.
and i snap and raise my voice at baby occasionally.
but i feel that we understand each other more as well.

sorry baby.
but this is my temper.
this is me.
thank u for accepting me for who i am.
baby tells me that she hopes i dun get angry at her so often.
i know i know.
i will slowly try and be more understanding.
hope i can learn to control my temper better.
i love u so much.
and i want our relationship to work out.
cause i think u are the girl i want to spend the rest of my life with.

bought baby a tiffany bracket today.
was expecting a more surprised face.
but baby's reaction was quite subdued.
haha.
i love u.
good night baby.
xoxoxoxoxo

15 Things I like about Baby

we are going on really strong.
i am head over heels in love with baby.
and i can also feel that baby is so in love with me.

15 things that i like about baby..

1. baby always take care of me
2. baby shower me with so much concern
3. baby satisfy me everyday want make make
4. feel so loved when baby always want to kiss me and hug me - before we get down the car, before i say bye bye to baby in the carpark below her house, at the traffic light, etc.
5. baby will cook yummy abalone porridge and barley gingko dessert for me
6. baby will make ice lemon and manuka honey for me in the morning
7. baby will buy egg tarts, char siew bao, hojicha cream frappe for me
8. baby will nua together with me at home on the weekends
9. baby will spend time and watch movies with me
10. baby will always calm me down when i get irritated with others
11. baby is nice to my family
12. baby will talk to my mum and make her so happy
13. baby knows my style and always get ready dry / wet tissue for me after my meal
14. baby will go puff with me
15. baby says she will go smoke G with me - yet to happen and looking forward to it

i love u so much baby

* went to ikea with baby and her family yesterday. i was going to puff and she was going to follow her family to cold storage. as we parted ways, both of us instinctively turned and loving squeezed each other butts at the same time. we turned around and looked at each other. then start giggling and laughing at each other. can't believe both of us did the same thing at the same time.
** ahh.. that feeling.. just so lovely..

Our First Time

31 December 2016.

last day of 2016.

our first time. 

it was great. 

did it 2 times some more.

hehe.

baby i am so in love with u.

2 weeks together and we are going on strong.
i think our characters are quite alike.

baby is so similar to me.
baby also enjoys the things i like to do.

both of us can just nua at home on the weekend.

going out just to eat and smoke.

baby cooked yummy scallop, abalone and prawn porridge for me when i was sick.

honestly i think that was the best porridge i have ever eaten in my 33 years of life.

after that baby also made barley, ginkgo nut and bean curd skin.

stupid baby refused to add more rock sugar.

haha i had to make her add more 3 times.

but the barley was some fucking good shit.

best barley i ever ate too haha.

taste like ya kun silky barley.

baby i will always treasure u and take care of u. 

hope our love can grow stronger with every passing day.

want baby to sleep beside me on the bed every night.

went to wake up to baby's cute face every morning.

just waiting to be raped by baby once i wake up.

love u my baby

* if u have love, u don't need to have anything else.
** if u don't have love, it doesn't matter much what else u do have.

19 December 2016

we are officially together..
surprised baby with a bouquet of pink and champagne roses..
baby was so surprised and touched..
i never asked her..
didn't spoke a word..
but wrote her a card..
"Be my baby?"
and baby nodded her head..
and kissed my lips..
hehe..

love to surprise baby and see her amazed face..
baby was expecting i would ask her to be my gf in 2017..
why would i wait so long when i am already madly in love with u..
baby baby..
i really hope i can make u so happy everyday..
i want to tell u that i will take care of u..
and shower u with all my love and concern..
i am going to surprise u even more..
just wait and see..

i don't want u to be lonely ever again..
now that u have me..
i will always be by your side..
want to share all your troubles and worries..
if u face any difficulties with work..
or if people in the office give u a hard time..
hehe just let me know..
and teddy will settle everything for u..
haha if i can la of course..

all started from nuss 2 dec when u first held my hand..
then at kenji house 10 dec when i secretly told u i have feelings for u..
now its 19 dec..
and u are now my baby..
i can kiss u and hug u and pinch u everyday now..
whenever i need some love..
i know baby will be there to give me  give me all her love..
u have made my last 3 weeks so damn fucking happy..
and i am always smiling in the office..
smiling when i see your text messages..
smiling when u call me on Line..
smiling when u video call me..
hehe i just can't stop smiling..

i really hope u will be the last girl i will ever need..
the last girl i will ever be with..
and so our fairy tale starts from today..
i hope it will go on and on and on forever..
i love u..

*i fell in love with u the second i laid eyes on u.. it had nothing to do with the way u looked..
** there was something in your eyes, then i found out what was in your heart..

Kena Caught

felt like a celebrity today..
today went on a secret lunch date with cc..
at queensway shopping center..
after eating mac..
we were puffing outside..
some stupid idiot staff actually took a picture of us from far..
haha..
fuck..
KENA CAUGHT RED-HANDED..
now i know how a celebrity feels..
just minding your own business then suddenly u appear in a magazine..
lol..
well..
i guess i'ts ok if other people know about us now..

guess we are going to be lovers soon..
cc broke my streak..
she kept insisting that she didn't make the first move on me..
haha..
well i was already secretly in love with her for a few months..
made so many comments about her..
trying so hard to catch her attention..
hmmm..
so lonely for the last 10 months..
nobody will ever know..
and i will never let anybody know..
i don't want to go through that again..
so happy finally someone managed to find me..
to lead me out of this wilderness..
i don't want to be lonely again..

baby..
please take good care of me..
i can feel that u really show me alot of concern..
just going out with you..
i know that you will be very nice to me..
i love when cc takes food for me..
i love when cc laughs at my jokes..
i love when cc teases me about the sweet things i say to her..
i love when cc remembers the things that i do to try and catch her attention..
hehe baby i love u..
i promise i will also take good care of u..
and starve u so that u will lose 10KG.. HAHAHA

going to miss u for the next 3 days when u go back to the sabah jungle..
haha..
but at least baby gave me the first kiss on my cheeks..
before she left..
lol..
can i call u baby yet.. or still cc..
haha..
nah i have already fallen in love with u..
you are now my baby..

baby told me today that i still have not asked her to be her bf.. i replied

* i already asked your heart and it said yes. dun need to ask the person..

HAHAHA.. best line of the day..

Day 178 - Ai Xin Noodles

it's 4.20am and I can't sleep.. I keep thinking of cc..
after 6 months she finally realised I was interested in her..
haha.. well I didn't make the first move..
hmmm but I guess everything just happened naturally..
thanks to my two lovely mentees who added so much fire..

drank a lot today with cc..
then started asking her whether she is ok with me smoking weed..
can't believe she actually said she will try it with me..
is this a dream come true?

was holding her hands and walking to buy beer..
not my first time holding her..
the first time was at nuss..
haha actually I think she already secretly liked me..
was holding 2 big bags of beer..
when she asked me whether she could hold one bag..
so I could hold her hand..
that was damn smooth girl.. haha
like shooting an arrow straight into my heart..
fuck I am so awake just thinking about this..

sent her home in the taxi just now..
she was sleeping soundly in my arms..
her face gently brushing my cheeks..
I was wishing the taxi took 1hr to reach her place..
hahaha..

she invited me up to her place..
and cooked ai xin instant noodles for me..
lol. I seriously was hungry..
but at the same time..
was using that as an excuse to spend more time with her..
she interrogated me for like 30 mins..
reminding me of all the small things I did in the past..
just to catch her attention..
making stupid comments to make her laugh..
indirectly making the first move..
haha.. really pichar my lobang sia..

it has been awhile since I had that feeling
the feeling that makes your heart flutter..
can't let her know..
don't want her to find out..
I think I think. I think maybe. Just maybe. haha

* cc do u have a plaster?
** I just scrapped my knee falling for you..

haha that was the best line of the night..
well done teddy.. haha.. well done

Day 0 - Love at First Sight?

i was walking to the taxi stand with RM yesterday when i saw this cute girl from far..
not sure whether she saw me looking at her..
but her eyes were fixed on RM..
maybe she like ang moh?

finally i walked past her..
hmmm.. quite cute i thought..
stupid RM was still looking at his phone..
then finally he looked up..
and waved to the cute girl..

i looked at RM and asked..
who's that cute girl?
that's the new GST manager.. cc
LOL.. i said..
are you serious?
RM said..
yeah.. she's coming on Monday..
what do you think?
ok lor i said to RM..

DAMN I CAN'T WAIT FOR MONDAY TO COME!!!!!!!

* do u believe in love at first sight or should i walk by u again?

The Fool

Thank u for loving this fool once..
U know u can never have the best of both worlds..
U can't take the good side of me but disregard the bad. .

Don't worry.,
There is a price to pay for everything..
I will get what I deserve in the near future..

Too bad..
I have already walked that path..
As a bystander..
I don't think u will ever understand what I am thinking.

Even I am confused myself..
At times when I was at Malaysia I ask myself what I am doing also..

Haha..
U know maybe fate gave me such a life..
To fly up so high but in time..
I will just crash harshly back to earth..

Maybe we are just like the moon and the stars..
So near but yet so far..

I will always remember u..

Are We Progressing?

maybe the question u should be asking is..
are we stagnant?..
what do u think?..
why don't u tell me..

i still remember the first few times we went out..
u would just sit there listening to me talk..
we would talk and talk..
about me..
about u..
we just had so many things to talk..
to share..
to listen..

i don't know..
maybe it is the..
the-longer-u-are-together-the-lesser-u-talk syndrome
that is the disease married couple always have..
i just feel that..
we seem to talk lesser now..

everytime u don't like to listen something..
u will just change the topic or ignore..
i guess i don't blame u..
cause i always rumble on about politics..
or how dumb or stupid my family is..

we also rarely have time just chilling or doing nothing..
don't know whether it is your character..
that don't want to stay at home..
or that your life just have too many activities..

baby..
i am not complaining about our relationship..
i just want u to know that..
i can't seem to find..
quiet time to spend u..
where i can just relax and do nothing..

it is so difficult to fit a holiday in our schedule..
no time to take leave..
no time to watch a movie in my room..
no time to do this..
or no time to do that..
no and no and no and no and no..

i realise..
our character are not so far apart after all..
baby do have the i-want-to-do-what-i-will-do character..
same as me..
but at least baby is the milder kind..
baby will try hard to influence the decision to suit her..
but will still get irritated if it does go her way..
at least better than me..
i will immediately flare up..

i guess after saying all this..
at the end of the day..
i am still happy being with baby..
its just that..
as time goes by..
people get lazier..
we tend to take more things for granted..
we assume that if the other party is not complaining..
then things are fine..
when maybe it might not be as rosy as it seems..

i am not saying that baby is not doing anything..
of course i appreciate baby coming over every Friday night..
but..
i guess..
everything is just slowly becoming routine..
i hope we can do more different things together..
monday, friday class..
after class eat dinner go back sleep..
sat - go office, at night eat dinner..
if got time go watch movie..

i suggest we stay at home and do nothing..
baby will like..
huh.. really meh..
u sure u want..
i don't mind.. but hor..
hai..
well..
i think i have to admit..
i am getting abit bored..

actually..
i don't mind playing mahjong together..
but baby make so much noise about losing money..
i am glad that we are not playing with someone like u..
cause u sound exactly like my brother..
if u can't afford to lose..
then don't gamble..

hope that we can find a common interest..
or something to do together..
how about gambling together..
go rws together..
like no..
go short trip together..
no money..
go diving together..
this one got money la..
but spoil my hair..
don't know la..
don't know if it will end up one day..
u just do whatever u want..
and i do whatever i want..
since everything i want to do..
u also disagree..
and not all the things u want to do..
i am interested as well..

hai..
not pouring water on us..
but.. but..
if we really want to be together for long..
i think we need to resolve the issues..
that we quarrelled about recently..
and that i feel u are slowly neglecting the small details..
don't know la..
maybe u already store all my bad points somewhere..
even write a few hundred pages also cannot finish..
haha..
i guess..

* i love the way u love..
** but i hate the way i am supposed to love u back..

Staying in Love

its been like more than 2 months since we are officially together..
so many things have happened..
our first overseas trip together..
our first not so valentine's day celebration..

we are having more arguments..
more quarrels..
more disagreements..
more disputes..

but at the same time..
i feel that we are slowly understanding each other more..
at least for me..
i don't know about u..

at the start of course everything..
is so rosy and honeymoon..
but i guess that for 2 persons to be together..
to remain in love..
after the first few months
there would be the need for some sacrifices..
some compromise..

i don't think this relationship would work..
if it is just one person always giving in..

i understand that i have a fiery temper..
and normally i know that..
baby will at least compromise and give in a little..
when she is not in a bad mood..

but when baby becomes angry..
i feel that she also becomes a different person..
baby u must also control and keep yourself in check k..
i hope that the day won't come..
where u just give all this up because of one angry moment..

other than this..
i guess our relationship is slowly growing..
have not blossom into flowers yet..
but gradually i can see a future of us..

baby really makes me more and more happy everyday..
i guess i am really feeling so comfortable with u..
always by my side..
that it feels a little weird..
if i don't have u by my side..

really like that baby is investing..
so much of her time and effort for our love..
baby i will treasure u..
i hope that in the many years to come..
we would still be happily together..
i love you..

* Women = Creatures who demand the equal rights and the benefits of the weaker sex..
** Maybe there isn't someone for everyone afterall..