An Adult

do u remember a time in your life when nothing mattered? a childhood of innocence and mischief. then do u remember a time when things started to matter a little? a time when u went to school to see the pretty face u dreamt the night before. a time when the friendships you make last forever. then did u remember a time when things started to matter but u didn’t have an explanation for? why did that someone you love so much left you? or why didn’t you do a bit more then when u had the chance?

and by the time u’re ready to answer the last few questions, you start to realise things around you do not seem as simple as they are anymore. you wake up with so many decisions to make and go to bed worrying about those that you will need to make tomorrow. love is no longer the i can die for u tomorrow kind of feeling. then slowly, you seem to have an answer or solution for everything that happens. and by that time u will have left this realm and gone off, gone off forever to become an adult.

* i don’t want to grow up. stay with me in my fairytale fantasy...

my diary

now i realise why people like to blog so much. this is your own space, your notice board to the world. you can type watever you want, say anything u like. i'm addicted.

why did you have to find it out so early? i would have written more of my feelings. now that you are checking, i wonder whether i'll be able to write my heart out. are you just here because of a friend? i don't want a friend, i want more. i'm dying for you love, so please tell me something. tell me u're not ready, tell me it isn't time yet. just don't tell me u don't love me.

Chinese Proverbs

i learnt 2 new chinese proverbs today. it's pretty chim and funny.

有一 条 腿，穿 一 条 裤，有一 个 肚子，吃 哪 一 碗 醋 .

and

三杯和万事，一醉解千愁 .


you made me high for just one day. i thought i finally moved you. so is it friendship, sympathy or responsibility, or a combination of all 3? why aren't you here in my life? take a look at me, i see the world, but the world don't see me.

she found out

after 2 months, u finally found out i was sending emails. i don't blame you for not realising what i was doing. i guess half of me also wanted you to find it out later. it's different sending you mails knowing you will check it in future. well maybe it gave me the courage to write things i normally wouldn't write if i knew you were here. but i am glad you found out, at least now you know i was thinking of you for the past few months. i mean everything i write, just wanted you to know.

Maiden Post

blogging is shit.. why do people waste their time blogging..
are you going to read my post?