The First Long Phone Conversation

just finished a phone call with miss xx..
this was the first time we chatted for such a long time..
slightly more than 2hrs..
heheh.. nice conversation..
talked about alot of things..
she was upset about getting over soccer guy..
which is a VERY VERY good thing to hear..
should i be happy for her..
maybe i'm more happy for myself..
was wondering if we would ever talk long over the phone..
finally the wait is over..
there were times where miss xx was talking about soccer guy's stuff..
like how the wall, the floor and like so many things in her room..
reminded her about soccer guy..
i listened silently as she went on about it..
there were times i almost wanted to ask her about us..
but i think luckily it didn't come out..
well it did..
but in a muffled and incomprehensible tone..
i asked u questions about us when i was speaking gibberish..
miss xx was like huh??.. wat r u talking about..
i asked u what would happen if i turned out to be like my cousin..
hehehe.. i also asked u what would happen if i had feelings for u..
but all the time u replied.. huh.. wat?.. i don't understand..
the time i got pissed off with u..
was when i found out u stopped checking your email..
again almost blurted it out..
but managed to say i'll tell u when u're older..
hmmm.. i wonder when will that be..
will it be the time when u totally forget about soccer guy??..
or when u start to have some what feelings for me??..
hai.. it was a sad but very happy conversation..
u're so innocent..
i hinted to u so many times that i might have a secret blog..
which i do..
hai hai.. u're so cute when u're talking in a sleepy mood..
was very tempted to say more things to u..
but i guess u'll find out eventually when the time is right..
so cute.. so funny.. just so freaking adorable..
ah.. these are all the tell tale signs that tells me i'm really starting to like u more..

* i finally got over dream gal..
** when will it be your turn to get over soccer guy??..

stranger from the bus

played a prank on miss xx today..
just signed my new hp line in the afternoon..
pretended to msg miss xx some stupid things with the new number..
hahah.. hi there i'm a spore chinese guy..
want to become friends??..
she never reply..
then i msg her..
care to intro.. how about a movie next week..
then miss xx replied i'm a chinese guy also..
how did u get my number..
haha.. i replied..
i saw your number on the bus offering a fun time..
what kind of a good time are u referring to..
at the same time i msged her with my original number..
ask her how she was what she was doing..
then she told me some scary guy msg her..
i pretended to be anxious and called to ask what was happening..
then while talking to her..
the so called stranger called her too..
hahah.. she was like..
eh eh the stranger is calling me..
HAHAHAHAH.. bingo.. prank accomplished..
she was with my cousin who kind of scolded me la..
luckily miss xx wasn't that pissed..
and we are still watching movie next week..
she me and the 'stranger'.. lol
so fun teasing her..
times with her are always so exciting..
we really do click well..
heheh.. in some sense..
miss xx u never fail to make me laugh..
how i wish i can spend more more time with u..
i think i am really really falling for u le lar..
use to tell myself it's like like only leh..
but then now i want more..
much much more!!!!!!

* good night miss xx..
** i'll be sleeping with a grin on my face tonight..

Mozi Ge Li

a: r u sure u don't like miss xx..
b: what do u think..
a: it sure doesn't look like it..
b: why do u think so..
a: if u don't like her.. why do u keep going out with her..
b: u don't need to like someone then u can go out with her..
a: but that's not the way u act sometimes..
b: how do i act..
a: u know.. like that..
b: like what..
a: u enjoy her company..
b: yes i admit i do.. but..
a: but what.. why r u trying to deny it..
b: i'm not.. i'm not sure of my feelings..
a: just because she said it was impossible between the both of u all..
b: it's not that..
a: then what is it..
b: she kind of have feelings for another person..
a: and so what.. if u like her u have to let her know..
b: it's pointless.. i mean..
a: no.. what do u mean..
b: i don't want to give her more things to worry about..
a: cause she said it would make her scared..
b: yah.. something like that..
a: it's turning out to be like dream gal..
b: i mean isn't it obvious how the way i treat her..
a: so.. u never say anything.. what do u think she would think..
b: she's too young for me..
a: is that another one of your excuses..
b: i wonder.. probably..
a: u r scared too aren't u..
b: scared about what..
a: scared that u would just get disappointed again..
b: hmm.. sometimes i think i'm not good enough for her..
a: that's the same excuse u gave about dream gal..
b: it's true what.. isn't it..
a: i don't think so..
b: but i do.. considering all the shit in my life..
a: and ben is not that big a shit..
b: haha.. at least that shit can make dream gal happy..
a: i feel that he is working harder than u are..
b: i'm just a lazy bum..
a: i know.. and u expect miracles to just fall out from the sky..
b: i've never worked hard for anything in my life..
a: that's a lie.. u did..
b: have i..
a: this is just another one of the many excuses u always give yourself..
b: u think too highly of me.. i always look in the mirror and..
a: and what..
b: i see a useless piece of shit..
a: haha.. that's cute.. stop lowering the expectations u have for yourself..
b: what's the point of aiming so high.. when u only fall harder when it fails..
a: excuses.. just more and more excuses..
b: but do u think miss xx likes me..
a: it doesn't matter.. she won't and will never if u continue to act like this..
b: that's the problem with church gals..
a: nope.. that's your problem with church gals..
b: i seem to only like church gals.. but i'm never good enough for them..
a: that's what u think.. do u even know what they think..
b: i don't care.. u're making me sick..
a: can't handle the truth..
b: it sucks.. big time.. and it hurts.. worst than anything..
a: hai.. talk to u another time..
b: ah..

tanah merah mrt 2pm - to simei

going to meet miss xx in 107 mins time..
hmmm.. i mean just yesterday i was grumbling..
i didn't want to meet her..
u are starting to feel like dream gal..
i usually don't feel so much whenever we go out..
cause i saw u only as a friend..
but lately i've been feeling abit the weird weird..
i told u i didn't want to go fellowship..
but when u asked me to meet u to go together..
i was like.. hmm.. gaa gaa..

one year zoomed past just like that..
i wanted to have a one year anniversay post for this blog..
but i just couldn't be bothered..
didn't blog anything about my birthday this year too..
had a mini birthday party with my rota mates..
the people i excepted to wish me.. all did..
nothing out of the extraordinary..
except maybe miss xx's phone call to wish me happy birthday..
she was the first..
hmmm.. not dream gal.. who was second..
hahah.. is this some hidden sign that dream gal is no longer no 1?..
i wonder.. hahaha..

i'm not excited.. but i kind of miss her.. haha..
the one i'm going to see in 101 mins now..
hai hai.. miss xx.. u ah..
don't want to think too much..
and i won't kick up too big a fuss about going fellowship..
i long to go and start going back to church..
i mean after that long cold war with ah pa..
he was horrible.. but i guess i wasn't much better either..
then he let boon drive the car alone..
and got it scratched..
see la.. all ah pa's fault..
u better buy me my new phone and continue my hair thing..
otherwise.. otherwise..
damn.. i'm blogging without any order liao..
i don't care...

* watching japanese anime at the moment..
** waiting patiently for my goddess to fall out of the sky..
*** hahaha.. where are u my Belldandy..????????