Baby Pork

baby i can't seem to fall asleep..
so many million things are running thru my mind right now..
sometimes i wonder if we are meant for each other..
are we really happy spending time together..
me irritating u and u laughing at my stupidity..
should we even be holding hands when we're not officially u know..
hai.. are we running away from our responsibilities and problems..
or are we just trying to show the world a fairy tale..
i'm okie with no status and all..
cause i feel it will be easier to explain to the busy bodies who keep asking..
but sometimes i'm afraid that u'll wake up then pai pai pi gu and leave..
haha will u..
u're probably more afraid that i'll be the one doing that right..
what if i don't turn out the way u like in future..
or u get too fed up with my temper..
what if i don't devote myself to god..
or u can't stand me teasing u being fat anymore..
what if we never talk to each other again after tomolo..
what if dear.. how how..
what is the best way forward..
at times your expectations can put me off a little..
this la that la..
but then u don't say much nowadays..
so that makes me worry even more..
even though i try..
i'm worried there will never be that day..
that perfect day we both dream about..
damn it.. i hate myself..
i do.. i really do..
good night dear..
thanks for walking into my life..
miss u lots..
MUACKS!..

* 24 April 2007
** 4.20 am

gosh oh gosh

things are happening faster than u can even say stop..
i don't know what to blog..
i don't really know what to say..
what should i say..
that the inevitable is going to happen?

i feel comfortable whenever i'm around meow meow..
her jokes, her teases and her presence..
she makes me so happy everyday..
just by hearing her voice or admiring her pretty face..
motivates me to work harder in everything i do..
being with her drives me to make changes my life..
striving to get rid of all the flaws and bad habits..

i like u meow meow..
love the lectures u give me..
appreciate the concern u shower on me..
cherish the times we shared..
and just simply adore your cuteness..

* let us embark on a beautiful journey..
** to discover a love that would be unforgettable..

Movies with Meow Meow

watched a couple of movies with meow meow already..
but never really blogged down the memories of anyone..
no chance as the stupid internet in my house is fucked..
i hate u tamade singnet..

well in general, the highlight of watching a movie with meow meow..
is that u can 'abuse' and force her to feed u during the movie..
started with the first movie we watched..
'Seducing Mr Right' at Cineleisure..
she wanted to eat the taiwan XXL chicken..
brought it into the cinema in meow meow's bag..
during the movie, she fed me piece by piece with a satay stick..
i guess it was the first time someone actually did that for me..
i love it and enjoyed the feeling so much.. lol..
next was 'The Pursuit of Happiness' at Vivocity..
didn't feed me any shit cause she bought some retarded flavour chips..
and was munching it her own bloody self..
during 'Hearty Paws' at Tampines..
we bought XXL chicken again..
i am smart already..
will only buy things that she can feed me la..
soooo soooo sweet man..
one mouth after one mouth..
one piece by one piece..
most recently was 'Mr Bean's Holiday' at Bugis
this time she chose a packet of chips which i could also eat too..
maybe she already learnt her lesson at vivocity..
that if she chose some cock flavour..
she won't be able to feed me..
nor get close to me or wat la..
just maybe lor..
hahah..

meow meow is geting more and more friendly with me..
teasing and playing with me during the movie..
she waves a piece of chip in front of my mouth..
but takes it away in time before i can even eat it..
horrible horrible meow meow..

there are times when i turn towards her..
to catch a glimpse of that pretty little face..
there are also times when i rest my head over on her side..
just to hear her breathing so close..
i imagine meow meow laying her head close to mine..
and that she might catch me looking at her one day..
i want more please..
pretty pretty please..

* grabbed your hand to cross the road the other day..
** when will it be your turn holding mine?..