Daddy and Mummy

this entry is dedicated to two of the greatest people alive..
my beloved parents, the ones that gave me life and brought me to this world..
thank you daddy and mummy.. i love you so much..
thank you for loving and bringing me up until now..
thank you for your love, MONEY, education and everything u guys have given me..

now i can only beg for forgiveness, for being such an unfilial son..
i am so fortunate to have such a wonderful family..
i had everything i wanted since young.. tasted and tried everything under the sun..
yet, because of such a good life, i continue to expect more and more..
relying too much on god, on friends.. on family..

why?..
is ultimate happiness only achievable through sadness?..
is there is no i'll be okie tomorrow quick fix to my problem?..
can i just dream tonight and make up in your arms tomorrow?..
why do i keep asking questions and don't bother making an effort to change?..
can you not let me love you first so that you may fall in love with me?..

daddy, mummy, if u guys ever get to see this post..
i just wanted u to know that i am sorry..
please forgive me for all the sinful things i've done..
forgive me for being so stubborn..
i still cry when you scold me, cause it hurts like hell..
i pray i will never stop crying.. so as to remind me that i am still your beloved son..
to tell me that i have not finished walking into hell..

*pa, ma, i love you..