Paul the Love Foe

was supposed to go sembawang church this morning..
woke up but felt so pissed off that mummy came into my room..
not once but twice..
in a rage i just locked my door and waited until they left..
god seems so insignificant in my life..
that i treat service so lightly..
miss xx must be already halfway thru her service..

paul's secret blog is back online..
somehow stumbled across it again this morning..
started to reread some of his old posts..
especially the one about me..
his previous posts felt so like me..
hmmm.. he liked miss xx..
but never really told her anything..
he tried to be nice to her..
and recorded down her reactions..
his thoughts and disappointments..
miss xx seems to act like how she is to me now..
then i realised miss xx is just like that..
and not that she is starting to like me more or wat..
ah.. so it is like that afterall..

came back from ktv last night with guocheng and karen
was a bit tispy from the vodka i brought..
acted a bit crazy than normal..
pretty high from the singing and talking..
she asked me to name 3 reasons why i liked miss xx..
i came up with..
1) miss xx is cute..
2) miss xx laughs at my jokes..
3) miss xx shows me special attention..
lol.. so boring.. and i was struggling with the answers..
i guess sometimes it is really hard to state why u like someone..
still remember just one year ago..
miss xx and i started to become friends..
when i was still madly in love with dream gal..
and never really imagine i will start to like miss xx more..
now that it has come to this..
should i just tell miss xx that i like her..
but then and i quote from paul..
"which idiot will do so many things for a girl if he dun like her"..
hahah.. and to think i was asking paul not to give up..
it's been one year.. and maybe he still haven really given up..
from friends to love foes.. hmmm..
paul.. oh paul..

* should i let miss xx read your secret blog..
** but i just might be helping u.. instead of myself..