a sign

i have not stopped thinking of u since the day u left..
i have tried calling u but u never pick up..
i have tried smsing u but u never reply..
all i yearn is to hear your voice..
even if it is just for a while..
to know u are doing fine back home..
to know if u miss me just a little..
life seems abit more bearable when u were by my side..
now that u are gone..
it is back to the boring old me..
everyday for the last week i would stare at the handphone charm u gave me..
dreaming and thinking of u..
it was the 1st and only present u ever gave me..
though small and insignificant..
it meant so much to me..
it was something i would remember u with..
the times we spent together..
the moments we shared with each other..
however i am letting the memories of us fade away..
as i don't want to be overwhelmed with the sadness of missing u..
as fate has it..
i dropped the charm and it broke..
it no longer hangs on my mobile..
and i've now kept it in my cupboard..
it feels as if this was meant to happen and to happen right now..
as if something or someone is gently telling me to let go..
i am left to ponder maybe this is really going no where..
imagining a future with someone that does not even exist in my life..
i don't wish to be depressed and frustrated over u anymore..
i shall wake up from the lovely dream about us..

* somethings are not meant to be, like the stars and the sea, like you and me..
** between us, there can be no eternity..