Stood Up

i am always confident in love..
in choosing my dates..
in choosing who i love..
but i was stood up the first time in my life..
she made me wait for 8hrs..
i had gotten ready and was waiting for her to call..
but she never did..
neither did she reply any of my messages..
in the end..
i feel asleep on the bed..
dreaming she would call..
when she finally did..
all she said was that she was sick..
and didn't tell me because she didn't want to disturb me..
omg..
what a fucking lame excuse..
i hate this feeling..
this shitty irritating feeling..
should i give her another chance?..
or should i write her off this very moment..
she asked to go out again tomorrow..
i am now unsure whether i should even be hopeful..
i don't want to join the stood up club twice..
going to bed..
not caring if she would call or not tomorrow..
good bye..
bye bye bye..

* dreams are today's answers to tomorrow's questions..
** better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there..