days without you

i've stop crying.. i don't know why..
tears just seem to fall lesser nowadays..
and i seem to shun away from the sad dramas i meant to watch..

why.. is it because of my manic depression?..
i think i have a mild case of bipolar disorder...
nothing serious.. but it seems to be developing slowly into something..
i can feel it.. it feels great..
it makes u feel old.. makes u feel important..
helps u see the world from outside the circle..

it is time to admit.. i don't love you..
not one bit.. in fact.. i hate you so much i never want to talk to you again..
i can survive on my own.. i will recover without your help..
and if i don't.. i will die in my own regrets..
burn in hell for the sins i've committed...
it is over for this lost and broken soul anyway..

*death.. are you waiting for me?..
i am here.. standing right here...