miss miss xx

lately i have been thinking about u..
i've even started to email u some songs..
with the wild thought that u would suddenly check it again..
but since this time i know u are not checking..
i am able to write more stuff..
thoughts and feelings i normally wouldn't dare to tell u..
people around me are starting to ask about us..
what are we.. why are we acting like this..
heheh.. actually i kind of like the feeling that we are something..
well i don't really know what we are.. or why are we acting like this..
maybe u can explain it to me.. i mean.. hahah..
whenever i think of u.. it brings a smile to my face..
whenever i feel bored and lonely.. i know your sms will make me laugh..
i mean.. like i mean.. like what does it mean..
hai hai hai.. i'm too messed up right now to think of it..
i still need time to figure out the shit in my life..
in the meantime.. give me at least something to dream about..
a glance of the wonderful things that might happen in future..
even if it is just for a moment.. even if it turns out to be nothing..

* i am thinking more of u than dream gal..
** i am.. i really am..