1.57 am

i can't sleep..
it's already so late and i still have to wake up tomolo for day duty..
staring at the can of Heineken i just opened..
i hate beer..
tastes so horrible and bitter..
yet i am drinking it..
hoping it will somehow put me to sleep..

tossing around in bed just now..
just can't seem to fall asleep..
deciding whether to ask miss xx out for dinner on valentine's day..
should i?..
i'm thinking of all the possible guys..
that she might be going out with on that day..
paul, soccer guy, that someone who studied with her at siglap..
kangyang, guys from church, guys i don't know from her jc..
guys who like miss xx that i don't know of..
or maybe she won't even be free on that day..
it is a wed after all..
who knows she might have already planned something with her Roxie gang..
maybe pearlene like last year..
or yummy..
or jolene..
or chen weijian..
or maybe even the guy she's referring to in The Gallery..
haha.. hmmm.. baaaaaa...

i should just sms her something..
just in case she's really free on that day..
yeah i know..
be prepared to be disappointed again..
u know..
it's like the in thing now anyway..
too busy or just not free..
maybe i can cancel out paul from the list..
he has guard duty anyway..
wonder if he might pull off something last min..
and gets shot down by miss xx again..

* evil thoughts.. u don't deserve her..
** u don't freaking deserve a lovely angel like her..