the ring

this is the very first time..
a gal has ever given me a ring..
i mean..
it is always the guy's job to get the gal a ring..
i never expected it..
thank you darling..
u told me that..
the ring was given to u by your mother..
and now u wanted to give it to me..
gosh..
there are so many first times..
when i am with u..
u really really never seem to stop surprising me..

u know..
i really can't believe that we are already talking about marriage..
i mean..
i don't know if u understand..
how hard it is for us to be together..
it is like almost really very unimaginably impossible..
for us to even talk about our future..
yet we are already talking about..
when we are going to get married..
when we are going to have kids..
about the kids we want..
u wanted a boy and a gal..
i said that was fine with me..
then i asked u if u wanted a boy or a gal first..
u said u wanted a boy first..
which was exactly what i was thinking..
hahaha..
i mean..
don't we just think so alike..
then u said..
the boy would be so handsome..
i gave u a face and asked u why?..
hahah..
u said..
cause his papa is very handsome..
hhahaha..
i was like..
couldn't stop hugging and kissing u..
oh my gosh..
i am running out of words to describe my happiness..
i don't know how to express my joy in freaking english..
my my my..
this is really something..
i told u our daughter is definitely going to be so beautiful..
when she grows up..
but u just sticked out your tongue..
and said..
not as handsome as our son..
and then started raining kisses on my face again..
oh my..
i was so happy to the point..
whereby i thought i was just going to burst..
i mean..
i mean..
erh erh..
i don't know what i want to say at all..
i am so in love with u right now..
so so fucking in love..
i hope and i pray..
that we would be given a chance to be together..
i am going to work really really hard..
and earn lots and lots of money..
so that i can make u and our future kids so happy..
i love u darling..
love u like crazy..

* you don't marry someone you can live with..
** you marry the person who you cannot live without..