make up your mind

i realised today.. i can't make up my mind..
i want to commit.. i want a gal in my life..
i need love.. i need to tell someone i love her everyday..
i crave for company.. i wish to hear someone's voice everyday..
hahah.. not yours.. mummy or daddy..

until now u still haven chosen that pot of rice..
has he been trying hard?.. hahah.. good for u..
i wish i knew more about his 'tactics'.. so that i can laugh at him..
i asked your best friend whether u have fallen for him yet?..
all she says is she doesn't know..
but i mean u still haven given him an answer for so long..
obviously rite.. dickhead.. u don't stand a chance..
it's just whether i can grab my own opportunity...

hai.. i have already thought about it.. analysed it..
talked about it.. slept on it..
but the conclusion i have come up with is that..
i am ready to commit to u anytime.
but i'm still not ready to commit to god..
i mean i'm trying.. although not very hard..
but think about my past... at least i'm not on drugs or gambling anymore.
i know smoking can NEVER be acceptable.. and i am trying..
and i told u rite.. i will be drinking when i come back..
hai.. what i said to u before is slowly coming true..
anyway does your character suit mine?..
do u think we look good side by side?..
do u think we can make a future together?..
positive goes well with negative..
u're the happy one.. i'm the sad one..
u're the god loving one... i'm the just a little not god loving one..
heck.. i give up ..
i really do..

*don't want to think about u..
u just made me depressed again...