Something is NOT very right

wtf????.. already 4 posts in one week..
am i trying to break my record number of posts in a week?..
nah... i'm just recording the slow gradual increase of the number of times i think of you..
lol.. idiot me.. i shouldn't be doing this..
but it's okie i guess.. at least it makes me happy..
at least it helps me think less of her..
at least i feel less depressed or sad..
at least i have something to look forward to when the weekend approaches..
at least.. at least i have another friend to go out with..

so funny.. i was just complaining how boring singapore was a few weeks ago.
yet suddenly.. suprisingly.. i have been so busy last week and this..
friends.. ice creams.. teapots.. blah blah blah.. just seem to appear out of the blue..
i'm not complaining.. lol.. why should i.. it feels great.
feels great to be around friends.. around so much ice creams..
haha.. u'll probably think i'm mad..
but it doesn't feel normal when there are people around me..
i am so used to being alone.. and it was starting to feel okie and normal..

hai.. maybe i shouldn't think so much of you..
are u just going to end up being another her?...
mad fool.. u're already thinking of what to get her..
when her birthday is like fucking 4 months away..
hahah.. infatuation??.. crush?.. fling??.. more than friends??..
lol.. how should i describe it..
i hope it doesn't become a problem.. lol..
will it???... we'll see..

*stay tuned...