Book In Day

don't really have time to update much.. now that i am only come back on the weekends
dropped out of the sergent course... back to being a normal recruit...
national service is really no big deal.. training is tough and irritating..
but after the aches and pain.. i can feel my body growing stronger..
well i hate discipline and routine.. and i feel moody everyday in camp..
at least civil defence is not as dirty as Tekong..
but seeing so many malays with attitude problems..
makes me want to shoot them in my head..
sigh.. 5 more weeks left.. and i can get out of that stupid place..

i seem to think of u less in camp..
probably because i don't have think to stone or dream..
from the moment i wake up .. to the moment i fall asleep..
i am always occupied with something ..
marching.. exercising.. lessons.. so many things...
and when friday comes for me to book out..
the weekend just flies pass so quickly..

i saw u today in church.. u look terrific..
u must be having your exams now..
as u walk by in a hurry.. i couldn't even open my mouth to tell u i've missed u..
hmmm.. u seem ever so far..
and u rarely appear in my dreams these days..
what will happen after 2 years?..
i pray my love for u will not just fissle away..
or maybe that is not such a bad thing..

*thinking of my future girlfriend and wife..
will she be you?... will she ??...