the girl who forgot her password

i didn't mean to check your email.. i was just curious..
i wanted to find out whether u were checking my mails..
now i regret checking it..
cause u aren't..
i am devastated.. i feel that u have been wasting my time all along..
u're just like her.. u're another her..
why bother telling me to send u anything when u probably forgot your password..
u're as un-emotional as her.. u're starting to feel like another her..
why do i seem to like girls that feel nothing...
why do i seem to waste my time doing things that these people don't even appreciate..
i am going to take a chill right now..
to see how things turn out..
i guess we really are destined to be friends.. just friends..

as for the other one.. nothing really much to say..
no feelings.. no contact.. nothing..
feelings die after awhile.. dreams fade away after some time..
in my hopelessness.. i am starting to feel stronger..
i am even more determined to stop smoking..
maybe this is what i should be doing..
turning my anger and can't be botheredness into something useful..
afterall.. i want to help myself..
i want to create a future for whoever i am going to be with down the road..
i am still thinking of u.. i am still waiting for u to give him up..
i want to hear from your mouth u don't have any feelings for pot of rice..
other than that.. i will be silently waiting for u..
yeah u might be the most perfect girl in the world..
but for me.. i can only love someone the way i want to love them..
can u wait?.. i have been waiting for a few years now..
i want someone to tie me down.. want someone to stop all this crazy shit..
will that someone be u?.. or will it turn out to be someone else..
don't think u're the only perfect one..
if u want something.. fucking tell me..
cause i've already told u what i want..

*No smoking - Day 1