the song i wanted to send you

if u didn't know.. i've continued to make a list of all the songs i wanted to send to u...
it's just that i don't seem to take the effort to upload it to your gmail..
probably because i am so tired every weekend when i book out..
but i seem to have time to go for movies..
have time to do so many rubbish things like drinking or watching soccer..
yet i can't seem to sit down for a few mins to send u a song..
hmmm.. maybe because i don't really know what to email u..
i want to write all my thoughts.. all my feelings.. all my emotions..
do u realise that i've stopped sending u emails for almost one month now...
do u miss my emails... do u wake up everyday hoping to see a song from me?..
or are u busy studying for your exams..
busy with all the duties and responsibilites u have..
i feel sad that i've let our distance grow apart again..
sometimes i feel that u want me to approach u in church..
but i just never seem to pluck up my courage to start a conversation with u..
why.. why baby.. why do i always seem to hesitate when i see your lovely face..
u walked by me today while my back was turned against u..
u said hi.. but continued on to the toilet..
your hi sounded so beautiful.. it felt like sweet music..
nicer than everything that i've ever sent to u..
why baby.. does my heart ache every night when i think about u..
yet when i see u with your adorable hair band today..
i chose to admire u secretly from far..
laughing and grinning to myself in my own imagination...
sigh.. u looked really cute today..
but i guess u will never know that i thought of u this way today..
it's 3.49am already.. and i have wasted the whole night..
starting to feel sick again.. probably from the alcohol..
i hope i don't get a sore throat tomorrow morning..
otherwise i wouldn't have any voice to greet u when we meet in church..
baby.. this song is for u..
.... if only u can hear the wonderful lyrics..

Karen Mok - Ru Guo Mei You Ni

*i chose to love u secretly.. i chose to admire your beauty from far..
this way.. i will be able to remember your face for the next 5 days before i see u again..

**to the most beautiful girl i've ever met and will ever meet.. i love you...