Little Sparrow

so tomboyish and auntified..
keeps talking non stop..
always seem to have something to say..
about everything and anything..
lol..
her sense of dressing is quite off too..
i mean..
hahah..
don't know whether she tries too hard..
or doesn't try at all..
i mean..
just look at the clothes she wear..
i think a fat and ugly girl can pick better clothes man..

okie i have to admit little sparrow is kind of witty..
but she can be so bimbotic at times..
so blur and doesn't seem to catch my jokes..
haha..
like really..
how hard is it for u to understand my jokes..
below is a classic example:

xy: Where are all the hunks??!
qx: One is at serangoon.. The rest i don't know.. Lol
xy: Ok ok. Intro le. What are you waiting for? Haha.
qx: U know him wat.. Still need to intro meh?
xy: Who? How come i dunno. Who stays at serangoon?
qx: I'm going to CHOMP CHOMP to eat dinner now.. U know where is it?
xy: Yes! Wa. Ok. Have fun. Eat more. !
qx: Lol.. It's at SERANGOON right?
xy: ....................... (no more response)

like what the heck..
either u're really dumb..
or u're super good at acting blur..
somehow i believe it's the first..
hahaha..

little sparrow is my childhood friend..
apparently she comes to my hse to play..
when she was young..
her father is my father's rumoured gay partner..
but i don't have much memories of her from last time..
only photos of us taken at my hse..
well after like more than 10 years..
we were to meet again..
honestly..
little sparrow is not a stunner..
neither is she a cutie..
if i saw her on the streets..
i don't think my vision will stray..
she is pretty flat too..
hahah..
don't blame her..
blame MRS HO!!
but then don't know la..
don't know why i like keep being nice to her..
and try to do things for her..
i mean..
usually i will only do all this kind of shit..
for a gal that i like..
or is interested in..

the first time we went out..
it was at some korean bbq place at dempsey road..
fuck..
she was like..
just order..
let's try this and that..
then when the dishes came..
she was like..
oh i only eat a bit..
knn..
order so much then eat so little..
hahahah..
lucky i was quite the super hungry..
and could finish up all the food
guess how much the bill came up too..
$187.14..
i almost puked when the waitress gave me the receipt..
tamade..
i don't think i ever ate something so expensive..
with just another girl..
hahahah..
after that we went to Harry's for a drink..
i mean..
throughout the whole evening..
we could talk about anything..
well we talked about everything..
jobs, gals, guys, careers, our lives..
but then leh..
i found it abit boring..
she just couldn't take any of my hints..
there were times i just wanted some silence..
u know..
to like build up the romantic atmosphere..
or watever..
but she just wouldn't shut up..
hahaha..
MAYBE she does not even have any ideas for me..
and that we were just good friends or wat shit..
but really man..
she probably talked more than me..
which is like so super unusual and weird for me la..

hahah..
i really have to admit..
there is so little physical attraction when i am with her..
she just doesn't bring out my gentleman instincts..
doesn't portray the 'protect me i'm a little girl' image..
hahaha..
don't know la..
i've never fancied sporty girls..
or girls that talk alot..
or girls that are too independent..
somehow she seems to have all these characteristics..
but then..
i email her the first thing i reach the office..
i am somewhat happy whenever she replies my msgs..
i am willing to like burn dvds and songs for her..
i don't mind buying durian puffs and bring it to her hse for her..
hahaha..
don't know la..
maybe i'm just bored and want to have something or someone..
to devote my attention too..
hahah..
something like a little pet rabbit or dog..
hahahah..
just a wiggle of your ears or wagging of your tail..
i am more than satisfied liao..
ah HAHAHAHAHAHA...

i wonder what will happen in future..
i think the possibility of me liking her is very low..
but then again..
u never know..
hahaha..
i am hoping NOT..
cause i am very AFRAID of MR HO!!!!!!..
hahaha...

* life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it,
** without knowing what's going to happen next.. delicious ambiguity..