Goodbye

i can still vividly remember the first time i met u..
it was almost ten years ago..
i never expected to see u..
yet it was as if fate brought us together..

ajc was not my first choice jc..
and i had never wanted to get into ajc..
but i scored a miserable 11 points for my prelims..
all my friends went to tjc..
except me..

ajc was so far away..
Yio Chu Kang..
and here i was..
living in Tanah Merah..
can u imagine what time i had to wake..
to sit that bloodly long train ride just to get to school..
i could tell u..
mornings in the train..
were the worst memories..

but here i was..
i met u during the first week of orientation..
they were handing it out to us..
we were told to wear it during the orientation week..
as we may be there only for the first 3 months..
we did not get proper school uniforms..
alot of us were wearing our sec 4 uniforms..
but it was orientation..
so they recommended us wearing it..

the first time i met u..
i did not think too much..
i mean..
u were not attractive..
neither did u stand out..
u were just simple and plain..
and i never expected too much from u..

i looked at u..
u did not say anything..
never would i have imagined at that point of time..
that we would spend the next 10 years together..

the first time i brought u home..
i was thinking whether it was okie..
to accept u as how u are..
i mean..
u looked okie..
so i didn't think much..
the first time i tried..
u felt so soft..
and i knew immediately..
i had found something so precious to me..

i took u out every night..
making u stay by my side..
i felt that..
the more we were together..
the better u felt..
i just could not get enough of u..

one night became a few nights..
a few nights became one week..
one week became a few weeks..
a few weeks became one month..
one month became a few months..
and suddenly..
without even me realising it..
i needed u every night..
it was as if i could not sleep..
if u were not beside me..
i needed u so badly..

but again..
being with me every night..
really took its toll on u..
i mean..
i admit i did not really take good care of u..
in fact even to the point..
of neglecting u..
when u were always there for me..
waiting patiently for me..
never complaining..
never refusing me..

soon..
time really took its toll on u..
u became so soft..
and i could see the strains i put on u..
u slowly faded..
as if letting me know..
that the end was near..
by then..
i realised..
we were together for so many years already..

i needed u so badly..
i made u follow me to australia..
i did not want u to leave my side..
u did not refuse me..
just quietly and patiently followed me..

there was once i hurt u..
stretched u so hard..
that i thought it was over..
i thought that the damage i caused was beyond repair..
yet u did not give up on me..
u did not forsake me..
i tenderly nursed u back..
but i had to seek help from others..
just to help u be normal again..

time really flies..
looking back..
i wished i had taken better care of u..
this would be the 10th year we are together..
u look so different now..
from the 1st time i saw u..
i mean..
i too have changed..
yet the memories we had together..
will forever live on in me..
i have decided to change and move on..
in fact..
i have found somone else..
someone that i hope would be able to take your place..
and give me the comfort..
and warmth that u have provide me all these years..
as i look at u..
faded and old..
i can't help but remembering the happy times we had..
and the sad times too..

goodbye..
i was glad that we met..
i would always treasure the 10 years we spent together..
i will always remember u..
all i pray now..
is that u will remember me too..
as i store u away..

i would never give u up for anything in the world..
nor change u for anything else..
i will always love u..

my AJC Orientation Tshirt that i wear every night to sleep

* As long as we have memories, yesterday remains..
** As long as we have hope, tomorrow awaits..
*** As long as we have love, today is beautiful..