Devoid of Feelings

devoid of feelings..
feeling so empty right now..
the memories feel so distant..
as if it was almost a dream..

i often catch myself..
constantly wondering how you are..
sitting alone with my mind so far..
reminiscing about your smile..
your voice and your touch..
damn..
i can't believe it is over..

i thought u would have done it more gracefully..
at least face to face..
yet it was just an sms..

u could see all the tell tale signs..
that it was slowly coming to an end..
were these 2 years meaningful to u..
it made me a better person..
that's for sure..

well i guess..
there's no point holding on..
to someone who doesn't want to be with u..
not once did i mention u here..
maybe it was just a premonition..
that i knew back then..

i thought u might have at least broken the record..
for the gal that stayed by my side the longest..
in the end..
u barely made it..

looking back..
u could say that..
everything started from u..
and now..
ended with u..

if u could turn back time..
where would u go back?
for me..
i wished i had taken better care of u..
when instead it was always u..
that was forever looking after me..

it was worth it..
i would gladly give up another 2 years just for u..
u will forever have a special place in my heart..

* I dropped a tear in the ocean..
** The day you find it, is the day i will stop missing you..