Mars & Venus

i was actually quite sad when u told me..
that we could not meet on wed and thur anymore..
honestly..
i was a little angry too..
i mean..
i so wanted to spend some time with u..
just the 2 of us..
after not seeing each other for like 1 week plus..

when i saw your msg this morning..
i think i got pissed a little..
then i had to cool down for awhile..
before i decided to msg u..
i mean..
i really did not want to ruin your study mood and stuff..
ya but this was what i felt earlier..

i kind of understand where u are coming from..
i was really touched when u said..
u need to go to the hospital to bring your mum home..
personally i would love a girl who would do something like this..
but i guess..
maybe i just wanted to see u so badly..
that i miss u so much i needed to hug u..
it was as if u were oxygen..
and if i did not have u..
i would just die soon..

baby thanks for calling me at the right moment..
u straight away could understand how sad i felt..
i really feel so happy now..
knowing that u too wanted to see me so badly..

i thought that..
u are turning out to be more and more like a mars..
hmmm..
how should i describe it..
i thought that maybe u are not that emotional..
or did not need me as much as i needed u..
but then..
i realised..
that u were just keeping everything inside..
that u too are sad..
that u cannot get to see me..
i guess..
that is good enough for me..

i am so venus la..
my wave really crashes..
if i don't receive the same amount of love and attention..
that i would give to others..
i guess i just need to feel full of love and energy..
so that my wave will grow more and more..
i really need the love, understanding and reassurance..
from those around me..
baby..
i hope that u will support this natural cycle of mine..
this 'venus cycle'..

i love u so much..
and i will love u even more..
love u love u love u love u love u..
thanks for always being there for me..
after today..
i really feel that we are one more step closer..
closer to understanding your heart abit more..
and mine as well..

looking forward for u to come back into my arms..
i will wait patiently dear..
and hopefully i don't sulk too much..
until all the wrinkles appear on my face..

thank u for u taking this journey with me..
a journey into the unknown..
a future where nothing matters..
as long as u are right beside me..

* Love is not an equation, it is not a contract, and it is not a happy ending..
** Love is the slate under the chalk, the ground that buildings rise, and the oxygen in the air..
*** It is the place you come back to, no matter where you are headed..