The Perfect One?

sitting in front of the computer..
idling in my own thoughts..
counting down to the days..
when i can see u again..

wondering what u are doing now..
are u studying hard?
are u missing me?
are u thinking of me?

nothing hurts more than missing u..
waiting earnestly for u to come back into my arms..
u seem so far away..
i wish i had wings..
so that i could fly and land beside u..
to kiss u on the lips..
while u rain hamster kisses on my face..

baby..
so many things have happened..
and it has made me realised..
maybe..
u are the kind of gal i am looking for afterall..
hehe..

u know..
in the beginning..
i did have my doubts..
about whether we can be together for long..
worry whether our characters would clash..
i did not really mention it to u..
but kept it bottled inside..
because i wished that everything would work for us..

but after all this..
after all that has happened..
it has made be realise..
u are the one i want to be together with..
the one to listen to my sorrow and woes..
the one to lift my spirit and brighten my everyday..
all those doubts were slowly cast away..
and what remained..
is the love i discovered in u..

baby..
honestly..
i am falling helplessly in love with u..
i feel that i need u so much..
that i want to depend on u..
and i want to love u more and more..

at the start when u told me..
no more gambling..
no more drugs..
no more this..
no more that..
i was abit irritated..
i guess i was still trying to adapt to your ways..
but deep down inside..
there was something that was bugging me..
as if a little voice in me..
was asking..
whether it was worth it..
to give it all up for u..
i pondered..
weighing up the things i discovered with u..
and the things that i would miss..
heheheheh..
in the end..
being with u really made me much happier..
that all those things i had given up..
did not matter to me anymore..

but baby..
try to understand me okie..
don't expect me to be an angel overnight..
can feel baby giving me more space and time..
more leeway in making some decisions..
thank u dear..
i feel that slowly..
we can come to a compromise on anything..

baby i got one complaint..
hehehe..
can i say it?
hope u won't be too angry..

baby i feel that..
when we touch upon a topic..
which u disagree or have other opinions..
i feel that u get a bit worked up so easily..
your voice change..
and u get a little impatient..
heheh..
baby do u realise that?
like when i was abit hesitant to consider going for the hair transplant..
like when i didn't want u to go in with me to get the medical report..
like when i wasn't as excited as u were to go on a group tour to Japan..
baby immediately became so disappointed..
then always use reverse psychology on me..

well dear..
it's not that i am not interested..
or hate these things..
it just that these may not be the normal things i would do..
but..
but but..
of course if we talk about it..
and u slowly convince me..
i might change my mind..

when we talk about going to Europe and looking at the scenery..
i told u it might be boring for me..
then u straight away said..
it's okie i would go with renee..
haha..
why didn't u try and assure me that it would be fun with u..
or that it would be so romantic just the 2 of us..
being in such a beautiful place like Europe..

hmmmmm..
u know..
if baby really wanted to go Europe with me..
i would still go with u..
no matter how boring i think Europe is..
because..
all that matters..
is that u are beside me..
and that..
will never ever be boring..

i like the way baby slowly cool me down when i get so hot headed..
i like how baby counsel me when i argue with my family..
i like it when baby listen to all the pent up frustration i have been keeping inside..
i feel baby is slowly making me a better person..

well..
might not be all smooth sailing at the start..
sometimes i do feel suffocated..
sometimes abit naggy..
sometimes restrictive..
i have always gotten..
whatever i want..
whenever i want it..

but now..
always got a second voice..
constantly chirping beside my ear..
giving me her comments..
forcing me to consider her opinions..
before i do anything..
hehehhe..
well it ain't that bad afterall..
because..
at the end of the day..
deep down inside my small and puny heart..
i know..
that this is all for my own good..

hai..
i kind of hate it when..
everything u say..
just seems so right..
and everything i do..
just seems so wrong..
it is like u are an angel..
and i am the devil..
why the hell would an angel be loving the devil..
please tell me why..

remember how u said that maybe..
we are so imperfect for each other..
like there are so many things we cannot agree..
like how we have different opinions on certain things..
u know..
maybe i am really so imperfect for u..
that maybe..
i am not someone u imagined being together with..
wondering if whether i can make u so happy..

but..
i want to tell u something dear..
u are so perfect for me..
hehehe..
well..
that is if u minus off abit of the "nagging"..
heheheh..
i love u..

* We come to LOVE not by finding a perfect person..
** But by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly..