This Afternoon

u were thinking so much yesterday..
is it my turn today?
was feeling abit sad because i did not receive any sms from u in the afternoon..
and i did not msg u back because didn't want to disturb u..
(NO.. THE REAL REASON IS THAT I AM AN MCP SO I DID NOT WANT TO MSG U WHEN U DID NOT MSG ME BACK)..
was sulking the whole afternoon..
then end up not doing any office work i brought home yesterday..

i feel like i am so weak..
so useless..
why can't i be more independent..
seems like i always need to rely on my other half..
started thinking and comparing SG gals..
hmmm..
so this is how it feels like going out with an SG gal..
haha..
was what i thought so..
maybe not suitable for my taste afterall..

we had some great conversations last night..
discussed some topics which i never imagined we would talk about..
intellectually sound..
very opinionated..
but the things u say..
seems to have left behind..
a lingering doubt inside me..

it started to daunt on me..
maybe..
just maybe..
it would not be as easy as i expected..
i mean..
considering my MCP character..
so used to being pampered by the gal..
going out with someone as independent as u..
makes me wonder..
what kind of a relationship ours would be..
if we actually get together..
is this what u were thinking about last night?

but just when i thought that all the initial euphoria is slowly subsiding..
she msged me..
'Wanna chat wif me on e phone while u acc me eat?'
lol..
i smiled..
hahaha..
what was i thinking the whole afternoon..
she do misses me after all..
hahahah..
immediately became so happy..

i guess SG gals ain't that bad afterall..
but must slowly get used it..
lol lol lol..
hopefully i won't be so MCP..
the next time she is by my side..

* Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect..
** It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections..